Do you all know what "erotomania" is? It's like--you know those "crazy" people who stalk celebz because they think the celeb is in love with them? That's what it is. It' doesn't have to be celebrities though. It can be anyone. It's basically just thinking people are in love with you all the time. Like--interpreting people's normal behavior as signs that they are in love with you. This is what wikipedia says about it, "During an erotomanic episode, the patient believes that a 'secret admirer' is declaring his or her affection to the patient, often by special glances, signals, telepathy, or messages through the media."
I know people suffering from an erotomania episode wind up killing people sometimes and stuff so it's like--"dark" kind of, but when I read about it, I can't help but feel that that seems like---fucking fun, lol. Seems like that would be an extremely fun lifestyle. Seems like people suffering from erotomania are "magical people."
I feel like I have the anxiety, depression, bizarre thinking and morality, and like--neurosis/unpredictability of a mentally ill person without any of the really fun parts of being mentally ill like having fun delusions and hallucinations or something. Seems like it would be "hella" fun to think everyone was in love with you and that they were sending you secret sexy messages.
Does someone want to take a shitton of acid and go to the carwash with me? I want to take "mad" acid hits, go to the carwash several times with change money from my purse, and draw pictures of monsters while listening to pet sounds. Let's do that. Like, now.