I feel really guilty about this, which is why I'm saying it publicly. Like, maybe it will ease the internal guilt I feel to talk about being a "shitty" human or something. I feel REALLY guilty about only watching porn with "white" people. Like--I feel like I need to force myself to watch porn with non "white" people or something. Is it like "normal" to feel neurotic about that? Does anyone else feel neurotic about that? I feel fucked. I would rather people just know that I only watch porn with "white" people, and that I feel really fucked and neurotic about it.
I also sometimes have cravings for food I don't even really like. Like, I have been craving mish mosh soup from Canter's all day, and I don't even really like it. I just order mish mosh at Canter's because it seems better than like--anything else at Canter's. I only even ever go to Canter's because it's open 24 hours, and also because I kind of hope I will see Rodney Bingenheimer there.
Fuck, you guys. H8 myself.