So, I want to eat macaroni and cheese but I want the noodles to be like...."full size." Like "uncut." Does that make sense? It's kind of crazy that I'm so miserable because I don't really want anything "good" or "important" or "hard." I think the only thing is, like I want someone to eat like "uncut" macaroni with. And it would be nice if they said neat things sometimes, and if they weren't just eating "uncut" macaroni with me because they wanted to put their penis inside of me, but because like, they wanted to eat "uncut" macaroni also, and like, specifically, with me.
When I want to say something mean to someone, I write it down. I write it down and then I edit it and edit it until it's the perfect thing to say, but then I never say it.
I have like an archive of mean things I've never said.